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[Kaeya... has been sleeping a lot, since heart game. It's easier to just not be in his head, but also he's just been tired! It was exhausting. So he took a nap after dinner tonight, and had some wild dreams, and now he has woken up... himself. Snapped back into place, with all the emotions and memories the heart game as brought about.

Which is why he's finding Noctua asap and, without warning, punching him in the arm. Not too hard of course, but he has to make his point.]

Excuse me, dear husband.

[It is definitely obvious he is Dying of embarrassment at this moment.]

[rubs his arm.]

...I take it you're feeling better.

I'm myself.

[But he's got a lot of conflicting emotions he can't disconnect from now so he wouldn't necessarily call it "better".

Anyway he's just going to plop himself down in Noctua's lap and bury his face in his shoulder.]

I cannot believe you did that.

Yourself.

[he accepts the amendment, softly. rests a hand in his hair.]

I didn't really... intend for it to go the way it did. Do you regret it?

[He shakes his head slightly, just sitting and breathing in Noctua's scent. It's comforting, especially now.]

I... It's hard to trust it. Not you, but all the circumstances around us. But... I'm happy.

I am, too.

[wraps his other arm around Pavo's waist. a hug.]

Is there anything I could do to make it more trustworthy? A proper ceremony, perhaps?

Nothing could be more certain than what already happened.

[Like, jeez. True heart marriage!!]

I don't doubt you. Not anymore. But the future is still a mystery I don't particularly want to solve.

Mm. We can face the future when it comes.

[nuzzles 'x']

Alright.

[Mmmnnnggh. There really isn't anything they can do but that. And he doesn't want to waste even a minute of happiness that might be torn from them at any time. But he's also still embarrassed, so while he is hugging back, he's also lifting his head a bit to very rudely bite Diluc's neck like a fussy cat reminding his human that he has fangs.]

Nnh-

[oh yep those are teeth. hugs him a little tighter.]

[He is leaving a definite bite mark! But he does let go, only to lift a hand to turn Noctua's face for him so he can... also bite his nose. But that's just a small, affectionate, deliberately shit-headed nip.]

I hope you know I owe you a lot of bullying.

That seems... fair.

[nudging their foreheads together, smiling in his subtle way.]

[Gosh feelings are hard, and voicing them is hard, but he loves that smile so much.]

Mm. I'll admit I'm surprisingly easily flustered, but I'll get my payback, and I'm sure it'll be delicious. Your blushing face when you're at my mercy is one of the best sights in the world. Then again... I do like it when you take charge, too.

But teasing aside, now that I'm my whole, entire self, there are some important things I should say to you.

[oh. flushing at the teasing, but. important things.]

Yes?

A moment...

[He needs to take a slow, deep breath, because feelings are hard. But he stays there, close, not withdrawing into his own space even though all his fear and self-loathing is very much apparent in his quiet, rough voice when he speaks.]

...Meeting you was like feeling sunshine on my face for the very first time. Warm, but also... it stings, a little. With all those secrets, it was just-- a mess. But when we were young, I could almost believe I could be happy someday, with you.

I know we can't turn back time, or put it on pause. I might not have the freedom to choose you. But I want to.

So...

[aand another big breath and he is not going to cry because he said so]

So even if it's just a temporary fantasy, I want to stay with you. I want to-- to go home with you, belong to you, support you whether you're being a businessman, or a socialite, or a melodramatic vigilante with a stupid nickname. I want to be happy, for a little while. And... in the end, I want to die in your arms, where I'm not anything but the person who loves you. So please, even if you can't save me, just... don't leave me alone.

...First off, I did not pick the nickname and do not approve of it.

[dryly, but then his expression is softening.]

Whatever happens, I won't kill you. I can't. But... I won't leave, either. Not again. I want to be with you 'til the end, whatever that end may be, whether or not you have the freedom to choose me.

...Okay.

[That's fine! Even if Diluc can't save him and won't kill him, as long as he's there when someone else does it -- or when Kaeya does it to himself -- then it's okay. Kaeya is sure that he'd feel safe in Diluc's arms even if he was dying in that very moment.]

I love you, Noctua. I'm definitely not going to be an easy partner but... I'd follow you anywhere, you know?

...And I like your stupid nickname.

I love you, Pavo. So much I don't know what to do with myself, sometimes. And I will stay by your side.

[kissing him, sweetly.]

...I'm glad someone likes the silly thing.

[Oh, nope. He tried not to, but his face has sprung a leak.

He doesn't deflect the affection, though. There has been improvement!]

Of course. If it embarrasses you, I like it all the more.

Of course you do.

[kiss, kiss, if they're kissing then Pavo doesn't have to feel as embarrassed about being Seen.]

[That is true! He'll gladly kiss back, needy and emotional, pressing close and holding tight but not in a sexual way so much as just craving the love and validation that he couldn't let in until now.]

You know...

[He mutters breathlessly between kisses.]

Ceremonies are for other people. As far as I'm concerned, the deed is done.

...But it would be fun to show you off, when we get back. The only problem is... Whether I wore a suit or a gown, I'd be so stunning I'd steal all your spotlight.

Hmph.

That's fine, isn't it? You've grown into a fine peacock, so you can dazzle them for both of us.

Oh, I will. But I want to see your face when everyone looks at you and realises you're really, truly off the market. You should be so beautiful that all the young ladies and gents weep with jealous regret.

[Kaeya is still crying a bit but he is also laughing! It's happy tears so it's fine, clearly.]

Hmm. Then I shall leave readying me for that day up to you. It is very important that the bride has his way.

Hehehe.

[He sounds entirely smug. Diluc can probably just see the gears turning as he starts to think of how much good-natured shit he could stir with that kind of power.]

You have a point. If I'm to be the bride of the most influential man in Mondstadt, I should rise to an appropriate level of vanity. I'll turn the whole cathedral into an announcement so extravagant you can see it from the very top of Dragonspine, and everyone will know I'm yours. And in the heart of that, I'll make us both so dazzling that even His Divine Noisiness won't have the words to write us down.

[And then probably Kaeya will eat shit but he is going to be as happy as physically possible until that time!!!]

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