[He needs to take a slow, deep breath, because feelings are hard. But he stays there, close, not withdrawing into his own space even though all his fear and self-loathing is very much apparent in his quiet, rough voice when he speaks.]
...Meeting you was like feeling sunshine on my face for the very first time. Warm, but also... it stings, a little. With all those secrets, it was just-- a mess. But when we were young, I could almost believe I could be happy someday, with you.
I know we can't turn back time, or put it on pause. I might not have the freedom to choose you. But I want to.
So...
[aand another big breath and he is not going to cry because he said so]
So even if it's just a temporary fantasy, I want to stay with you. I want to-- to go home with you, belong to you, support you whether you're being a businessman, or a socialite, or a melodramatic vigilante with a stupid nickname. I want to be happy, for a little while. And... in the end, I want to die in your arms, where I'm not anything but the person who loves you. So please, even if you can't save me, just... don't leave me alone.
...First off, I did not pick the nickname and do not approve of it.
[dryly, but then his expression is softening.]
Whatever happens, I won't kill you. I can't. But... I won't leave, either. Not again. I want to be with you 'til the end, whatever that end may be, whether or not you have the freedom to choose me.
[That's fine! Even if Diluc can't save him and won't kill him, as long as he's there when someone else does it -- or when Kaeya does it to himself -- then it's okay. Kaeya is sure that he'd feel safe in Diluc's arms even if he was dying in that very moment.]
I love you, Noctua. I'm definitely not going to be an easy partner but... I'd follow you anywhere, you know?
[That is true! He'll gladly kiss back, needy and emotional, pressing close and holding tight but not in a sexual way so much as just craving the love and validation that he couldn't let in until now.]
You know...
[He mutters breathlessly between kisses.]
Ceremonies are for other people. As far as I'm concerned, the deed is done.
...But it would be fun to show you off, when we get back. The only problem is... Whether I wore a suit or a gown, I'd be so stunning I'd steal all your spotlight.
Oh, I will. But I want to see your face when everyone looks at you and realises you're really, truly off the market. You should be so beautiful that all the young ladies and gents weep with jealous regret.
[Kaeya is still crying a bit but he is also laughing! It's happy tears so it's fine, clearly.]
[He sounds entirely smug. Diluc can probably just see the gears turning as he starts to think of how much good-natured shit he could stir with that kind of power.]
You have a point. If I'm to be the bride of the most influential man in Mondstadt, I should rise to an appropriate level of vanity. I'll turn the whole cathedral into an announcement so extravagant you can see it from the very top of Dragonspine, and everyone will know I'm yours. And in the heart of that, I'll make us both so dazzling that even His Divine Noisiness won't have the words to write us down.
[And then probably Kaeya will eat shit but he is going to be as happy as physically possible until that time!!!]
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pyrodelusion) wrote2021-02-25 08:43 pm
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Yes?
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[He needs to take a slow, deep breath, because feelings are hard. But he stays there, close, not withdrawing into his own space even though all his fear and self-loathing is very much apparent in his quiet, rough voice when he speaks.]
...Meeting you was like feeling sunshine on my face for the very first time. Warm, but also... it stings, a little. With all those secrets, it was just-- a mess. But when we were young, I could almost believe I could be happy someday, with you.
I know we can't turn back time, or put it on pause. I might not have the freedom to choose you. But I want to.
So...
[aand another big breath and he is not going to cry because he said so]
So even if it's just a temporary fantasy, I want to stay with you. I want to-- to go home with you, belong to you, support you whether you're being a businessman, or a socialite, or a melodramatic vigilante with a stupid nickname. I want to be happy, for a little while. And... in the end, I want to die in your arms, where I'm not anything but the person who loves you. So please, even if you can't save me, just... don't leave me alone.
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[dryly, but then his expression is softening.]
Whatever happens, I won't kill you. I can't. But... I won't leave, either. Not again. I want to be with you 'til the end, whatever that end may be, whether or not you have the freedom to choose me.
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[That's fine! Even if Diluc can't save him and won't kill him, as long as he's there when someone else does it -- or when Kaeya does it to himself -- then it's okay. Kaeya is sure that he'd feel safe in Diluc's arms even if he was dying in that very moment.]
I love you, Noctua. I'm definitely not going to be an easy partner but... I'd follow you anywhere, you know?
...And I like your stupid nickname.
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[kissing him, sweetly.]
...I'm glad someone likes the silly thing.
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He doesn't deflect the affection, though. There has been improvement!]
Of course. If it embarrasses you, I like it all the more.
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[kiss, kiss, if they're kissing then Pavo doesn't have to feel as embarrassed about being Seen.]
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You know...
[He mutters breathlessly between kisses.]
Ceremonies are for other people. As far as I'm concerned, the deed is done.
...But it would be fun to show you off, when we get back. The only problem is... Whether I wore a suit or a gown, I'd be so stunning I'd steal all your spotlight.
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That's fine, isn't it? You've grown into a fine peacock, so you can dazzle them for both of us.
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[Kaeya is still crying a bit but he is also laughing! It's happy tears so it's fine, clearly.]
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[He sounds entirely smug. Diluc can probably just see the gears turning as he starts to think of how much good-natured shit he could stir with that kind of power.]
You have a point. If I'm to be the bride of the most influential man in Mondstadt, I should rise to an appropriate level of vanity. I'll turn the whole cathedral into an announcement so extravagant you can see it from the very top of Dragonspine, and everyone will know I'm yours. And in the heart of that, I'll make us both so dazzling that even His Divine Noisiness won't have the words to write us down.
[And then probably Kaeya will eat shit but he is going to be as happy as physically possible until that time!!!]
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[fondly. kiss.]
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It's fair vengeance for making me the wife.
[also vengeance: pinching Noctua's sides]
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Would you- prefer to be the husband?
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[which he is now pinching also]
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Are those factors?
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Aaaand I'm taller than you. And yet you're the Master of the clan, hmm...? Ah, but I really want to know what you think the criteria are.
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I don't know. It just... happened the way it happened. I would be perfectly happy to be your wife, too.
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It's no fun if you don't have an opinion.
[he wants to argue for fun, gosh!]
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Hmm.
Then, your build is more suited to being the wife.
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[griiiinning. tell him he's pretty. let him preen!]
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[sliding hands down his sides, indicative.]
And have nice legs.
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Hmmm... that's true. I'd pull off a slinky dress much better. But imagine you in something big and poofy!
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Also, I'm stronger.
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